Friday, March 20, 2015

Update and 2015 Race Plans

When I promise I'm going to write more, hoo boy, am I lying. So yesterday was my 9th weigh-in at Weight Watchers. I've lost 19 pounds so far, and I'm feeling good. The two extremes, not tracking anything and tracking down to the calorie just don't make sense in my brain. The pointsplus system seems to work for me, at least so far. While I'm not eating perfectly, the result is an overall healthier approach to eating. I also feel like I can stick with the system, which is not something I can say about calorie counting. I'm not trying to maximize anything. I'm not trying to be perfect. I'm not a machine. I just want to be healthier and happier and keep up with my speedy offspring and beautiful wife.

This weekend is Shamrock weekend, and we have a wedding. It's the first time we're missing Shamrock since we started going in 2011. While it's a shame to miss it, I'm just ready to get back into jogging/walking. Wogging if you will. I've mapped out nearly a race per month, and several fun non-race activities. It will all kick off next week with the first of the monthly Run, Sweat & Beers at 3 Brothers in Harrisonburg. The next morning, the 28th, we have the Walk For Hope, which is in Bridgewater College this year. My brother and I took our three kids last year at EMU and it was a blast. So those two will ease us into April, where a few actual races await. Here's what I have planned for 2015:

Autism 5k
EMU in Harrisonburg, VA
April 11th

Second Home Superhero 5k
JMU Festival Lawn
April 26th (Sunday)

On A Mission 5K
Rockingham County Fairgrounds
May 30th

Vine to Wine 5k
Barren Ridge Vineyards in Fishersville, VA
June 26th (Friday)

Valley 4th 5k
Downtown Harrisonburg
July 4th (Saturday)

3 Brothers 3 Miler (1 mile each)
3 Brothers Brewery in Harrisonburg
August 29th

Race to Beat Breast Cancer 5k
13th annual, Harrisonburg Rec Center
October 17th

Sherry Burcham Anderson 5k
7th annual, Skyline Middle School
October ??

Rocktown Turkey Trot (4 miles)
Downtown Harrisonburg
November ??

First Night 5k
Downtown Harrisonburg
December 31st (Thursday)

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Starting Over

So, nothing since June apparently. I suppose that's due to a lot more kvetching in the last 7 months. In November I got sick and apparently had some sort of pneumonia without realizing it. It was diagnosed as "a virus" and I never went back even when I couldn't really breathe for almost a week. Chalk all of that up to a dose of stupid on my part.

I'm going to try and write again, partly to exorcise my food and exercise demons, and partly because maybe someone out there will get a sliver of relief knowing these internal battles we all face are universal in a way that is comforting and shitty at the same time.

It's hard to talk about this, but dealing with my years of food issues is now necessary in a way it wasn't before. I have a new doctor, and he treats the whole person. It's refreshing. I feel heard, and that's a new feeling. Only a few health professionals have ever really listened and had a genuine, healing interaction with me. One was a physical therapist I saw years ago for my back, the other is our masseuse. Now I finally have a main doctor who is genuine and truly understanding. So I took it seriously when he told me I'm pre-diabetic.

A few hours after finding out, I attended my first official Weight Watchers meeting. Later that same night, I attended Interval Fitness (aka Bootcamp aka Crossfit for old people) for the first time since November. So it was a big day. I'll be writing more about my victories and humiliations with both of these new activities.

I have so much flying around in my brain about actually being diagnosed with what is, in my case, completely self-inflicted. Instead of ruminating on the hundreds of ways I'm disappointed in myself, I'll keep it simple. I have fucked up. And now my task is to fix myself so I can be healthier and more present for my wife and son.